“I…I don’t know, I laughed at a lot of stuff when I was younger before…before uh…” the Khajiit cleared his throat, shaking his head.
“Nevermind. I guess I laughed when I was happy? Or when Sees or Jeer or my friends played with me? Kids laugh a lot when they’re excited from what I’ve seen.”
A dark look came over J’hasi’s face.
“Shadows. He…he wasn’t of our tribe, Jeer said to stay away from him, but…I didn’t really realize why they were so against me being around him. I guess…I just thought that’s how outsiders treated each other or…something? I mean Jeer and I were close, we didn’t treat each other like that, but the others would treat me like Shadows did for being different and…” He hissed out a low curse, turning his face away.
“…I was a child. I didn’t know better. I know better now.”
J’hasi continued pushing shells into his shotgun, ears flicked back as Shadows bared his teeth at him in the low light of the garage.
“You need me. You’ll be dead in two days tops. It’s dangerous out there, and I won’t be there to save your ungrateful ass.” The Khajiit pumped the shotgun, loading the chamber before pushing in one more shell to top it off and tossing it into his trunk on top of the dozens of guns laying there in a gleaming pile.
“I don’t trust you, so what’s the point of staying here? Are you going to sell me off to some demon next time? Use me as bait for a vampire? Hell, have me be your meat shield, your expendable battering ram against zombies? No. I’m fucking done.” He grabbed the false bottom of the trunk, about to pull it down before Shadows grabbed a silver knife from its sheathe, shoving him into a pile of tires, blade at his throat.
“You forget I let you live. You were bitten. You’re one of them. But I let you live.” Now it was the Khajiit’s turn to bare his teeth, ears pressing flat against his head.
“So you’ll tattle on me now? Let every hunter know within a hundred miles that big bad Stalks-In-Shadows got his little brother infected? How do you think they’ll react when they find out how I got infected?” J’hasi hissed as the silver edge just cut into the skin of his throat, burning like a son of a bitch and making his claws sink into the tough treds of the tires under his hands. Shadows’ pupils were slits, barely visible against the vivid orange of his eyes.
“I could kill you right now. You know just as well as I do that I know how to take care of a body. You’d disappear, like a ghost.” J’hasi smirked, even as a slight grimace from the blade ruined it, it gave the effect he’d wanted.
“Go ahead. You didn’t before, so surprise me. Sweep me under the rug like all the other mistakes you’ve made. Make me disappear, like I never existed. Or I’ll do it my damn self.”
Besides when he was a kid and Sees was like ‘hey grab a basket, time for going into the deepest darkest part of the swamp where all the Scary Shit lives’?
I don’t think he was too thrilled about starting his Morrowind Main Quest Bullshit, he mainly was just glad to be out of jail and away from Imperials and OMG GOLD REALLY OMG I CAN EAT FOR DAYS!! He very much disliked playing messenger boy between the Imperial at the Census Office and the Imperial in Balmora because what if the papers written in Cyrodilic letters say to kill him once he delivers them?? He did get excited once it fully clicked that he was free, only to get upset about this weird Nerevarine Prophecies stuff and what the fuck? He didn’t want this!
He was excited to go to Cyrodiil once he was well enough to travel after the mess of the Bloodmoon Prophecies, both because he wanted to find Caius and because NO ONE RECOGNIZES HIM. It was so nice! And then he got a job where he steals shit and gives it to the people who actually need it, which was even better! The whole ‘Oblivion pouring in through holes in the world’ thing he wasn’t too jazzed about, but hey, everyone was doing their best to close them! And that Martin guy was pretty cool too, even if he didn’t realize that he was the Emperor for like…weeks… Cyrodilic is hard, okay?
I think J’hasi was more excited in general when he met up with Jeer-Rah shortly after the Accession War and the two of them had a sweet roadtrip to High Rock to try and find a cure for his lycanthropy (even if he was…upset…after Shadows crashed the feels party and had his heart ripped out of his chest…).
High Rock was initially anxiety-inducing because what if the Dark Brotherhood caught on that they killed their Listener and were following them and were going to take revenge when they least expected it? But after a while, it was a nice feelgood trip for the two of them, yeah they’re dealing with witches and libraries, Breton politics and gossip, getting run out of town because Jeer-Rah doesn’t speak a lick of Cyrodilic and offending someone BUT THEY’RE HAVING A GOOD TIME. Like honestly, the years he and Jeer travel together is some of his best memories because he missed his best friend for years and managed to find them again and Jeer missed him too and it’s just…so many good feels man…
I don’t think he really got more than a ‘okay, time to go’ sort of vibe on trips after Jeer died. Even with Maarzi, since typically their trips were merc work and he’s never too thrilled about those, and then during and after the Great War it’s usually a survival thing, so not really an excitement thing. The Great War really messed him up. I hope he gets excited about trips again soon :c
3E 427, Morrowind, Vvardenfell District
Found a journal in a cave today, and Jiub always said that writing down your thoughts can help, so I guess I can start with this.
Imperials suck.
Dunmer suck. Most Dunmer suck.
Guards suck.
And I’m going to run away as soon as I get rid of this stupid package. The end.
21. What are your character’s manners like? What is their type of hero? Whom do they hate?
J’hasi’s always had manners since he was young (shocking I know), it’s just that he didn’t always use them. It was when he was enslaved that he not only learned Dunmeri manners, but also used them a lot more because of his first master’s tendency to follow ‘manners or pain’ route of discipline (which often enough ended up being ‘manners and pain’).
After his second master bit it, he tried manners to get help in terms of food and a place to sleep, but that didn’t work out so well. Hence his uh…colorful language when dealing with authority of any sort as he got older. If saying please and thank you didn’t help then fuck it. He leveled out a bit over the course of the Nerevarine Prophecies and the Oblivion Crisis, ending up his quiet, polite, but distant self we know and love today. Unless you’re rude to him first, in which case fuck you.
J’hasi’s type of hero would be someone who helps out the people who aren’t getting the help they need to survive, much less live. Minorities, poor, sick, disabled, oppressed, etc, anyone who is left out in the cold to starve while the rich nobles stuff their faces without a care in the world, flaunting their excessive wealth and status. Think of Robin Hood. Or y’know…the Grey Fox :3
Considering his hatred for inequality and the mistreatment of those deemed sub-whatever, he hates people who work to keep the imbalance as it is, and those who benefit from it. Slavers and slave owners, nobles who do little more than count their drakes and preen, corrupt politicians of any sort, ten times out of ten he would gladly punch them in the face and then some.
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24. What social groups and activities does your character attend? What role do they like to play? What role do they actually play, usually?
Answered! TL;DR J’hasi’s not a social butterfly by any means lmao
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35. Do they always rationalize errors? How do they accept disasters and failures?
Other people’s errors, yes (unless he hates them or they totally screwed him or someone else over, in which case fuck ‘em). His own, yes and no. He’s likely to blame himself for fucking up, then think it over and try to see if he had any other alternatives. And then likely blame himself if he thinks of an alternative, or find something else to blame himself for. I mostly think of his deal with the Nerevarine business when I write this because honestly that could be taken as his biggest fuckup to date, and it’s not entirely his fault alone, but the combination of several people’s fuckups (though he tends to forget that it was more than just his actions that caused the Red Year and Accession War when he beats himself over the head with it).
And I’d say not well? He tends to beat himself up over screwing something up, whether he did or thinks that he did. Not healthy behavior in the least, but the person who was teaching him that is long gone and isn’t around to remind him to stop and think :/ In the moment he’ll try to find a way out of a situation, especially if others are with him when it happens, but once they’re more or less safe the blame game starts up in his head.
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38. Are they basically negative when facing new things? Suspicious? Hostile? Scared? Enthusiastic?
When he was younger, everything was treated with excitement, later laced with caution when he learned that Black Marsh (and eventually the world) is dangerous. Lately, pretty much since…actually probably around the time he and Shadows had their little fight he’s been suspicious of new people, and sometimes new places. He’s always been wary, but it’s been upped greatly since then. Some things don’t get the third degree. Food is one of those things. So long as it isn’t poisoned, he’s willing to give it a go.
💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner?
J’hasi’s requirements would be pretty simple: friend? Yes? Okay, you probably fit the requirements already. He’d really only fall for someone he’s close with in the first place so really there isn’t any other way to go.
Maarzi’s requirements aren’t quite as intensive, depending on if this is one night thing, or a fun sort of dating thing because why not. You cute? Attractive? A consenting adult? Ayyy let’s go have some fun!
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👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking?
Friend dates work either way, J’hasi’s not too fussed. A romantic sort of date it depends on the state their relationship at that point in time. If it’s before the partner knows that he’s got them heart feels for them, he’d never ask them out for a romantic sort of date, but a friend date yeah (even though the only difference between them for him is the level of intimacy tbh). Being asked would probably make him explode (friend date or otherwise, TIME SPENT WITH?? YES PLS).
If he and his partner already know well enough about the romantic aspects of their relationship, it works out either way, but it’s worth noting that being asked makes him grin like an idiot.
Maarzi’s fine either way, though the way she asks is more of huge amounts of flirting prior to actually asking the victim partner out.
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💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak?
Maarzi messed around with a certain pretty lady that came around her parent’s shop every so often, and while her feelings developed past a purely fun, physical one, the other party’s did not. She was pretty young at the time, so it made her hesitate towards any sort of serious relationship attempts, and when she finally did make a serious relationship attempt, it came off as solely being interested in a fun fling rather than romance (which eventually changed, thankfully, leaving her with a partner she grew old with and died happy ;w;).
💟: what are three traits that my muse looks for in a partner?
J’hasi’s never ‘looked for’ a partner in his life. However, there are a few traits (that I’ve noticed) that he tends to gravitate to initially, and certain ones that tend to make him stick around. Romantic partners would likely be the same thing, as for J’hasi, the line between friendship and romance is a mess of ‘wtf is the difference aside from certain activities are done with this one and not that one?’. Not to say that he’s likely to initiate romantic whatever with anyone he becomes friends with, but at at this point and time, he can’t tell the difference between friendship and romance because he hasn’t experienced romantic attraction yet (whether he will, I don’t know).
Now, with that huge fucking disclaimer overwith: traits.
J’hasi likes red. For whatever reason, I’ve noticed that the people he tends to become close with have a decent amount of red on them, whether it be clothes, hair, feathers, scales, etc. Not sure if this is something that actually draws him to a person or not (or if I just like red in my character designs lmao), but it’s happened enough for there to be a potential trait.
There’s the typical stuff like he tends to prefer hanging around Dunmer/Argonians, people who speak Dunmeris/Jel, he’s interested in mages, but holy hell if you are nice to him and no seemingly ulterior motive in sight, he’s gonna be interested and poke around a little more. This is sort of a ‘yeah ok, anyone would be like that’ but with how J’hasi is, it’s a Big Deal. People aren’t just nice to him out of the blue.
He typically gets suspicious, but when the person doesn’t seem to have malicious intent behind it (even if it’s just giving him directions, something that wouldn’t directly benefit them in any way), it makes him a lot friendlier, probably a little too much so for his own comfort (because he’s got a big heart, and is probably a little too curious and friendly for his own good). It’s also how he’s gotten hurt so many times before in the past.
He likes nice hair too. What qualifies as ‘nice’, I haven’t been able to pin down a specific quality yet.
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💝: what would my muse consider a “perfect gift”?
Answered! But I’ll go into some specifics (not that this post isn’t already long enough lmao).
I mentioned that clothes, food, tools, practical stuff that he can use are big ‘yes, good’ gifts for him. Tasty foods, either stuff he knows he likes from Morrowind or Black Marsh (certain types of sweetfish, sujamma, etc), or new stuff that he’s never tried before (and thus are a new experience) are big hits. In Skyrim, any sort of clothing that’s warm is a Big Deal, especially if it’s colors he prefers wearing or likes (reds, browns, etc). Clothes in general are good, so long as they are a little bigger than what he’d actually wear (for some reason he’s never really worn clothes that properly fit in his life, so if it isn’t a little big on him he thinks it’s ‘too small’). Even tools or weapons are good choices, provided he can use them, and are of good quality. Hunting knives are good, since he’s lost a fair few over the years from fights or hunts, as are supplies such as bandages, salves, etc.
However, a gift he’d be hesitant about using is a spear, as his current spear is a gift he got from his late friend Jeer-rah, a gift he promised to always keep with him, and has almost been like a surrogate to Jeer’s lack of presence in the world of the living.
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❥: what is my muse’s ideal date?
Answered! But again, I’ll go into a little more specifics/examples/etc.
Cuddletimes are really good. And swimming. FOOD! Quiet alone time with the person so he can be open with them and invade their personal space and yeah he’s a little bit of an attention seeker with people he’s close with what d’you expect the last time he got a hug from someone before coming to Skyrim was like 30 years ago c’mon man;;;
He really misses the cuddlesessions with Maarzi and Jeer from way back when, beds seemed cold and empty for the longest time after they’d poofed from the world.
Tommy! (since they’ve met at least :D)
Attractiveness:
repulsive || hideous || ugly || not attractive || unappealing || not unattractive || meh || no preference || ok || mildly attractive || nice looking || cute || adorable || attractive || pleasant on the eyes || good looking || hot || sexy || beautiful || gorgeous || hot damn || would tap that || perfect || godlike || holy fuck there are no words
Personality:
grating || irritating || frustrating || boring || confusing at best || awkward || unreasonable || psychotic || disturbing || interesting || engaging || affectionate || aggressive || ambitious || anxious || artistic || bad tempered || bossy || charismatic || appealing || unappealing || creative || courageous || dependable || unreliable || unpredictable || predictable || devious || dim || extroverted || introverted || egotistical || gregarious || fabulous || impulsive || intelligent || sympathetic || talkative || up beat || peaceful || calming || badass || flexible
How likely they would have sex with them:
not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending || fuck no! || never || no way || not likely || not sure || indifferent || I’m asexual || maybe || probably || it depends || fairly likely || likely || yeah sure || yes || would tap that || hell yes || fuck yes! || wishing that could happen right now || as many times as possible || we are already having sex
Level of Friendship:
never in a million years || worst of enemies || enemies || rivals || indifferent || neutral || acquaintance || friendly toward each other || casual friends || friends || good friends || best friends || fuck buddies || bosom buddies || practically the same person || would die for them || true friends || my only friend ||
First impression of them:
I hate them so much || I don’t like them || I don’t trust them || they annoy me || they’re weird || I’m indifferent || meh || they seem alright || they’re growing on me || truce || I think I like them || I like them || I’m not sure if I trust them || I trust them || they’re cool || they’re genuine || I think we’re going to get along || I really like them || I think I’m in love || oh fuck they’re hot || I love them
Current impression of them:
I hate them so much || I don’t like them || I don’t trust them || they annoy me || they’re weird || I’m indifferent || meh || they seem alright || they’re growing on me || truce || I think I like them || I like them || I’m not sure if I trust them || I trust them || they’re cool || they’re genuine || I think we’re going to get along || I really like them || I think I’m in love || oh fuck they’re hot || I love them
How good of a kisser:
worst kisser ever || terrible || bad || awkward || just okay || alright || pretty good || good || makes me moan || excellent || exciting || oh god they’re good || I dream about it || fucking amazing || absolute perfection || we haven’t kissed
Jarl: How *does your muse address royalty? Would they carry out an order at the request of a Jarl?
He’ll be a little more respectful than usual, but it comes off as a little casual when dealing with royals of other cultures. If he’s not pleased with a certain ruler, then he’ll be curt and to the point, but not outright disrespectful…usually…
Unless the Jarl intended to pay him or he respected them, he would not.
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Halfling: How do they view half-breeds?
Same as anyone else. If you asked him to pull a half-breed out of a lineup, he’d be hard pressed to do so unless it was super obvious.
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Alchemy: Which ingredients do they most often collect and how successful is their potion brewing?
He’ll collect valuable ingredients depending on where he is. He’ll sell stuff he knows is useful/in high demand/valuable to local apothecaries and the like, usually at a discount if he’s been hanging around the area long enough to get to know the shopkeeps. Payment is usually gold at first, but will shift to more of a barter system once he finds them trustworthy enough.
Don’t ask him to make potions. He can make a few poisons, but his skill at alchemy is more around certain plants or substances that help speed up healing or stave off infection. He leaves actual alchemy to the people who know what they’re doing.
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Shivering Isles: How *does your character handle the topic of mental illness? If *they’re mentally ill themselves then how are they currently dealing with it?
He doesn’t think about it much. His education on mental illness is more of running into people who are a little off, and they’re rarely dangerous. He’s mentally ill but doesn’t think of himself as such. As for dealing with it… I’d say ‘not well’ covers it.
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Inn: What *does a typical visit to an inn entail for your character? What foods do they normally order?
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