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Rather young if you’re referring to religious faith. Though it was more of ‘I’m not an Argonian so the Hist probably doesn’t give a damn about me?? Fuck, now what?’, and its reprise ‘I guess fuck all gods :/’ . Otherwise he’s lost faith in a lot of people over the years, so now the only things he trusts is his spear, and his own claws and teeth.
Somehow it took J’hasi until he and Shadows met again as adults for him to start to slowly lose faith in his questionable ‘friend’ from childhood, though honestly I think it’s more that circumstances led him to believe that’s what friendship was because enslavement and Horrible Things happening for so long. And then repeated betrayals of his trust more or less shut him off to having faith in anyone. Can’t be hurt if you don’t open yourself up. Can’t be betrayed by people you trust if you don’t trust anyone!
I mean, Shadows and D’rahzaar weren’t even the first if you count past lives. In a way it kinda makes J’hasi think he’s cursed or something is wrong with him, that so many people who were friends with him, even in his past lives, betrayed him. He felt as a child that even Sees, his parent, betrayed him by lying to him about what he was, thought he’s worked through that somewhat as an adult. He doesn’t agree with it, but he understands why they did it at least.
As a side-effect, he initially thinks that anyone he trusts is likely to betray him when something happens, which is how he was with Maarzi and Jeer-Rah, who thankfully were the sort of friend that were like ‘what’s wrong friendo, let’s talk’, rather than acting on initial reaction of ‘what the fuck??’.
He still (albeit subconsciously) believes in people to some extent. That people, not all mind, but some will feel compelled to the the right thing. To try to do good in a world that’s full of suck. Not consciously because he believes that the world is more than likely to screw people over rather than help them. No one’s pointed this out to him yet so he hasn’t thought about it obvs.
See: the Red Year
Trouble, unfortunately, seems to follow J’hasi around like a bad smell. I mean he usually tries to do the right thing, but sometimes that causes three or four other side-effects that lead to Baar-Dau crashing into Vivec City and triggering eruptions and death all over the damn place and killing thousands and leaving thousands more homeless and forced from their homeland because they can’t fucking breathe.
Sometimes he just trusts the wrong person and ends up getting someone hurt or killed (never making that mistake again), sometimes he spares a life that he probably…shouldn’t’ve…
Honestly the Red Year is J’hasi’s biggest fuckup to date which is why I keep coming back to it lmao, I mean yeah he killed Dagoth Ur and stopped him from creating a nation of god-influenced hivemind slaves and dead outsiders, yeah he destabilized the entire region religiously and politically when he killed Almalexia because she decided that killing him was a Good Idea to consolidate power and save Morrowind from the Empire in her not-good state of Freaking Out because she’s losing her god powers and J’hasi (oops) made the Heart of Lorkhan go poof somewhere, he doesn’t know where and WHAT THE FUCK, NEREVARINE?
He didn’t kill Vivec, but whatever happened to them, J’hasi has no idea, other than that is sort of his fault whatever did happen to them because he made the Heart of Lorkhan go poof and Vivec was losing their godjuice and now they can’t get it back!
I mean sometimes ‘disaster’ is just a personal or locally-affected thing, like getting double-crossed by someone you thought you could trust, or someone rats out your squad to the Thalmor and gods damn it now you have to do this the hard way. Sometimes ‘disaster’ is blowing up an entire goddamn island.
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introduction —
name: J’hasi (has a Black Marsh name but doesn’t tell people it)
age: 227 as of 4E201
your favorite picture of your muse’s fc: Actually don’t use faceclaims, but the pic for J’hasi’s avatar is the closest I’ve ever been to properly portraying his face.
questions —
what would be their twitter name? what sorts of tweets would they tweet?
The only reason J’hasi would get a Twitter is because Maarzi makes him one. She would give him the handle ‘SweetFang’ and doesn’t tell him how to change it. He’ll (eventually) figure it out, but then won’t know what to change it to.
As for stuff he would tweet, it wouldn’t be often, but it’s usually food. Food he’s excited about eating, food that he wants to try, and food that wasn’t so great. It almost serves as a record of his eating habits and what he does and doesn’t like. He’ll sometimes post pictures of neat pictures he takes of wherever he is, usually early morning or late at night. He is very enthusiastic about taking pictures of the stars in the sky and dislikes taking pictures in the city.
what’s their favourite genre of movies? of music?
He likes adventure, science fiction, and horror movies. He doesn’t like zombie or (proper) vampire movies though, they’re too scary for him and he will latch onto whoever is watching with him and try to hide his face best he can. He doesn’t usually cry, but it sounds like he does the instant he gets scared.
Music, he’ll listen to pretty much anything provided the lyrics don’t make him uncomfortable. He tends to avoid rap for this reason, dislikes country entirely, and anything with screaming has to be very minimal or he dislikes it too. His favorite is probably smooth electronica/techno, rock, and nearly anything with a good beat he really likes. Examples because reasons: [ X ] [ X ] [ X ] [ X ] Note that this is a very small selection because when I say he listens to everything, I mean everything. If you give him stuff he doesn’t outright dislike, chances are he’ll like it.
what’s on their top queue on Netflix?
If you mean stuff he watches, a lot of it is cartoons, movies he’s been suggested to watch. Lots of kids’ movies. Sometimes it’s a TV series since he doesn’t like to watch TV in itself except for background noise and light if he can’t put on movies instead. Nature documentaries, ocean, volcanoes, space, all the good stuff he watches a lot. Usually when he watches Netflix it’s to binge on his things to watch, then he won’t touch it for a while if left to his own devices.
what’s their favourite scent? do they smell like that?
J’hasi both in his normal !verse and modern!TES is very sensitive to smells because of his wolf blood, so he doesn’t like strong smells of anything. As for smells he likes, usually the people he’s close to he likes their scents. Jeer-rah’s is almost like fresh ground black pepper, old-growth forest, and…well if you’ve ever smelled a snake or a lizard, that sort of scent. Maarzi tends to smell like warm caramelized sugar, sometimes brown sugar, clean cotton/linen, and sweat. Other scents J’hasi likes, petrichor is first on the list. Rain in a forest, ultimate favorite scent. Wood, whether it’s a log rotting in the forest or sanded and brought in like a table, water, lots of natural scents.
J’hasi in his normal !verse does smell like forest (among other things), but in modern!TES he smells more like fur and whatever laundry detergent/dryer sheets he’s using. When he’s working or done working he smells very different obvs, but typically he doesn’t have much of a distinguishing scent.
apple or android?
Android. The widgets are useful to him and he can afford it, and he can use whatever cables he wants, which is good because he somehow keeps managing to find micro-usbs everywhere? Where are they coming from? Who knows. But an Android lets him organize his phone how he likes, and he writes his own apps sometimes if he finds he needs something specific and he either can’t afford it or can’t find it at all.
favourite season? least favourite season?
J’hasi loves fall. One of the natural scents he loves is the smell of dry fallen leaves, or when it rains on them, all good shit. Plus it’s not as hot as the summer and he can say goodbye to bugs that annoy him, even if the bugs he likes vanish as well :c
He doesn’t like winter very much, but it’s a very much a hot-and-cold sort of feeling about it. His seasonal depression hits him hard and when it gets really cold he’s miserable, but when it’s not so frigidly freezing and he’s playing in the snow with his friends he likes it a little more. His second least favorite is spring because it’s just…all mud and gross melting slush and…yuck…no thank you…
are they a bottom or top or versatile?
If he ever did sexytimes, J’hasi would be a switch. Whether he bottoms or tops is up to how he feels that day. Typically low-energy days or if he’s upset he’d rather bottom, and when he’s feeling more okay then he wouldn’t mind topping. Since it would take an extraordinary amount of trust for him to bottom (which is what he usually prefers), that if is a very small chance that stuff like that would happen period. If it’s just smooches though (not that he would admit it) he likes being surrounded or pressed against something by whoever he’s being smooched by (again…lots of trust for that to happen). It makes him feel a bit more safe and grounded.
describe their morning routine. Do they wake up early or sleep in? do they press the snooze button a bunch of times or do they immediately get up?
In modern!TES, typical days J’hasi wakes up and either lays in bed for a bit or gets up and does something while he waits for his brain to fully wake up. He’s quiet and doesn’t talk much other than small noises, if at all. He gets up when he can afford to get up, usually by 7-9 he’s up. When it’s close to that time of the month and his sleep is getting worse, he’ll be up 9-10, if he sleeps at all. The more tired he is, the longer he chills in bed trying to wake up. If he’s not up by a certain time Maarzi will usually come in to check on him and harass him a little to get him to get up.
Normal !verse, he wakes up early if he can, later if he’s been drinking, and he’ll lay there for a little bit to get his bearings before getting up and getting ready for the day. His sleep is almost always crap, which worsens his general mood the closer he gets to that time of month.
if they were to be compared to a canon character, who would that be?
…I dunno? I haven’t really found anyone that really reminds me of him. Plus like…he changes a lot over the periods I rp him, so I can’t really say just one character and it would work for all of his lifetime.
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