[IRL update of sorts:
1. job acquired. I’m exhausted most of the time but I actually really do like my job (which considering its the first job I’ve had that I don’t have friggin’ panic attacks every morning just at the thought of going to is a goddamn miracle)
2. apartment acquired. Parent I haven’t talked to in years, we reconnected, get along, and now he’s helping me out to get a stable situation, which includes a place of my own. It’s safe, quiet, and not too far from my job, plus I can keep a snake there as well as get unlimited high-speed internet. NO MORE DATA CAPS AND SATELLITE INTERNET SPEEDS FOR ME THANK FUCK
3. I’m actually doing somewhat okay for the first time in…years? Ever? Like I’m still stressed out bc there’s too much going on at once, and I’m a bit upset that I can’t immediately go back to school and finish my degree so it’s done, but…iunno. I feel less like dying nowadays so that’s good.
I still miss my friends online and in Ohio, and I’m fucking terrified of being trapped in one place, but maybe it’ll be good for me to actually stay in one place and just recuperate and save up money, get stuff organized rather than frantically trying to piece together a boat while treading water. Plus having a good internet connection 24/7 again will help because I do recognize that if I don’t have some internet time to unwind to it does negatively affect my mood. What can I say, I love watching idiots rp in games, I love doing that. Plus playing games with friends, talking to friends, etc. I still want to find a World of Darkness tabletop rp group but like I can give it time and learn how to DM and maybe I’ll just make my own. WIth blackjack. And hookers!
TL;DR things are getting better and while I’m still struggling with stuff it’s not quite as overwhelming to the point that I can’t do anything to fix it. Plus I’m actually excited to get a pet snake (since dogs and cats aren’t allowed at my new apartment), so I’ll have more than just a fish friend who is confined to the tank rather than being able to cuddle with me.
I love cuddling with snakes, shush!]