“<…bucket-head… Ooh! Oh, booze!>”
✔✔
“<Wh…? Oh. OH. Oh, that would’ve been bad…>”
[*wordless, unsure pause*]
“<…their hair is so pretty…>”
Modern!TES Verse
Stolen from @deadeyedrifter bc it looked like fun also I am in huge modern!AU mood right now.
Name: Gee-Ei/Marsh-Eyes (not used outside of Black Marsh/the house), goes by J’hasi
Nickname: Ei, Marsh (Jeer’s nicknames for him) Furball/Purrball, Sweet Fang (Maarzi’s, latter is stage name as well)
Age: early 20s
Gender: Agender/genderfluid
Nationality: Uh
Place of Birth: Dune, Elsweyr
Current residence: Winterhold, Skyrim? Cyrodiil? Iunno. Cheydinhal maybe?
Religion: Uh…questioning.
Languages: Jel, Dunmeris, Cyrodilic
Career: College student, part time librarian, part time stripper
Family:
– Sees-In-Mist, guardian (missing)
– Jeer-Rah, best friend/poly pal/roommate
– Maarzi, best friend/poly pal/roommate/coworker
– Stalks-In-Shadows, friend/brother/abusive asshole TL;DR not fun times happen
– Cheddar, doggo
Pets: He’s got his hands full with Cheddar, a dog that followed him home after work one night. Some sort of mutt. Yes J’hasi is bad at picking Cyrodilic names for things. Wants a fish.
Household: Small apartment with Shadows that they found near where Shadows works in a garage and the black market in the back.
He lives with Maarzi and Jeer in a small house they rent out from Maarzi’s parents. It’s cozy and sometimes a lil lively, sometimes quiet when Jeer leaves on a trip, but it’s home and it’s safe.
Social media: He’s on Twitter, only because Maarzi made him an account. She keeps changing his settings because he doesn’t know how to change them yet. Has Skype just to talk to Maarzi and Jeer while on the go because group messaging doesn’t work on his phone.
Height: 5′9″
Body type: Scrawny af, starting to get a lil muscle and pudge with Maarzi’s help, which has massively helped him with his part time job.
Hair color and type: Black and straight, thick and it used to be long, but it got cut short recently.
Eye color and shape: Green and…big? Iunno.
Tattoos/Piercings/Distinguishing marks: Spots everywhere, light grey on his chest and tum and groin, white patches on the backs of his ears and tip of his tail, and stripe-spots on his back and tail. Think black/grey king cheetah.
Virgin: yes / noAge when they lost their virginity:
Virginity is a social construct, but he hasn’t done the do. Smooches are about it. Maybe a little bit past smooches >_>
Smoking: No.
Drinking: A bit too much. Maarzi has been working with him about it.
Drugs: No.
Personality: Stressed out, tired, quiet, and withdrawn while out and about. Extremely focused when he’s working on something. At home he’s stressed out, tired, quiet and super fucking affectionate with those he’s close with, though something recently happened that he’s kinda ehh with the intimacy thing. Easily frustrated, impulsive, and probably drinks a bit too much. Trying to level himself out like he’s supposed to but it’s hard. He’s arguably a sweet guy, just…not a good time right now. Anxious depressed furry ball of flop.
Hobbies: Sleeping, sleeping on top of Maarzi/Jeer, cuddling with Maarzi/Jeer, laying on the floor, watching the same ocean documentary for the sixth time this week and it’s only Tuesday…
He used to draw and read and go outside, but things happened and he doesn’t have a lot of time for that anymore anyways.
Favorite drink: Sujamma, tea, coffee…more coffee…with sujamma in…
Favorite food: Ash yams, scrib jerky, fish…lots of stuff… Recently has gotten into liking spicy food.
Favorite music: Listens to nearly anything, but smooth electronica and classic rock is probably his favorite go-tos. Rhythm = good.
Favorite movie: Hasn’t watched many, but he loves Robin Hood. Which one? Well there’s several.
Favorite TV show: Doesn’t really watch TV, it’s just background noise when he’s not feeling okay.
Favorite books: He honestly couldn’t tell you. I could. Mostly horror, science fiction, fantasy, etc…
Clothing style: Jeans, t-shirts, sneakers, and either a hoodie, jacket, or a flannel over the top. Has a necklace with Hist wood that he has from Sees that he wears, and his stupid bulky wristband thing that’s for his condition. He hates it.
Underwear type: None or briefs. Hates boxers under jeans, it makes him all EEGH with his fur.
Heroes: Robin Hood.
Bucket list:
– Graduate with his degree. Please.
– Get a job that he doesn’t have to work two jobs, the stripping job pays well but like…he’d probably die of mortification if anyone from school knew he stripped to pay rent (Maarzi is working with him to get over this :/).
– Get buff af. Jeer keeps showing him up and he hates being so twiggy.– Talk to mysterious stranger that he sees in the library every day.
– Just live okay with his family and not have to worry about Shadows or money or his condition and just…just be okay…please?
✿, ♱, ψ?
✿ Would they ever trust dark or wicked magic?
Magic is magic, it’s the caster that he worries about 99% of the time. It’s only when magic requires something that may be morally objectionable (such as using innocent people or something similar to fuel it) that he’d draw the line. And it’s only when he’s truly desperate that he’ll be tempted.
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♱ What do they think awaits them after death?
Answered! J’hasi knows that if he were to die here and now he’d go straight to Hircine’s Hunting Grounds. If he cured himself, however… He doesn’t know. Would he be dragged to Azura’s realm, Moonshadow, because of his…Nerevarine…whatever? (Can he even be called her champion if he only worshipped her in a different life, or if he’s rejected her? How the hell is that even figured??) Would he go where Khajiit go? He doesn’t know where they go exactly, but…
He’d prefer one of two options: cease to exist entirely, or at least go to the Hist. Or maybe where Maarzi went? If he can’t go lights out entirely, then he’d want to be with Jeer and Maarzi at least. He’s not sure the Hist would take someone who isn’t Argonian.
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ψ Do they think they deserve punishment for their wrongdoings?
Being alive seems punishment enough, in his opinion. Whether he deserves it or not he shifts on his stance often enough as he overthinks it each time. While he wasn’t really given a choice, he still went along with Azura’s little plan for him, and in a series of events, triggered the Red Year and all the horrors thereafter. He’s done some fairly bad stuff. Maybe not intentional, but he still did it.
There’s reasons why he goes back and forth in his head for hours over this.
💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner?; 👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking?; 💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak?
💑 What are my muse’s requirements for a potential partner?
J’hasi’s requirements would be pretty simple: friend? Yes? Okay, you probably fit the requirements already. He’d really only fall for someone he’s close with in the first place so really there isn’t any other way to go.
Maarzi’s requirements aren’t quite as intensive, depending on if this is one night thing, or a fun sort of dating thing because why not. You cute? Attractive? A consenting adult? Ayyy let’s go have some fun!
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👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking?
Friend dates work either way, J’hasi’s not too fussed. A romantic sort of date it depends on the state their relationship at that point in time. If it’s before the partner knows that he’s got them heart feels for them, he’d never ask them out for a romantic sort of date, but a friend date yeah (even though the only difference between them for him is the level of intimacy tbh). Being asked would probably make him explode (friend date or otherwise, TIME SPENT WITH?? YES PLS).
If he and his partner already know well enough about the romantic aspects of their relationship, it works out either way, but it’s worth noting that being asked makes him grin like an idiot.
Maarzi’s fine either way, though the way she asks is more of huge amounts of flirting prior to actually asking the victim partner out.
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💔 What was my muse’s first heartbreak?
Maarzi messed around with a certain pretty lady that came around her parent’s shop every so often, and while her feelings developed past a purely fun, physical one, the other party’s did not. She was pretty young at the time, so it made her hesitate towards any sort of serious relationship attempts, and when she finally did make a serious relationship attempt, it came off as solely being interested in a fun fling rather than romance (which eventually changed, thankfully, leaving her with a partner she grew old with and died happy ;w;).
‘Oi!’ The oh-so-friendly greeting is accompanied by a hunk of bread flicked affectionately at J’hasi. He is, apparently, the lucky inn patron the Scamps have singled out to bother this evening, lead on this occasion by Drasonval. ‘What’re you lookin’ so miserable for?’
The Khajiit flinched at the bread, ears flicking back as he looked at the Dunmer. Though…they looked sort of familiar… He pulled his mead closer to gulp down more, swiping the back of his hand over his mouth when the last fifth or so of the bottle was emptied.
“<Didja think tha’ maybe I shtarted drinkin’ t’forget?>” J’hasi crooked a brow at the mer as if adding a silent ‘hm?’ before grabbing his next bottle, quietly cussing a few choice words in Dunmeris when the cork refused to come out nicely.
ღ:how does my muse feel about displays of affection in public and/or in private? 💘:how does my muse act/react when they first realize that they had a crush on somebody? 💝:what would my muse consider a “perfect gift”?
ღ:how does my muse feel about displays of affection in public and/or in private?
With friends he’s a little better about it, but generally, the more intimate the display is, the more uncomfortable he is with it in public. Short hugs and such are okay, but playing with his hair (or vice versa), longer hugs, cuddles, etc make him super uncomfortable in public. He tends to withdraw a little and keep his eyes on the ground, unsure how to bring it up that he does care about friend, he’d love to hug them for longer but he doesn’t want people watching.
In private he’d happily cuddle in the grass and read in the sunlight, he’d love to braid your hair or have you braid his, hell you could pretty much do whatever you wanted, just so long as other people aren’t watching. It’s a self-conscious thing as well as a paranoia thing.
With a romantic partner it would be much the same except the whole ‘this intimate moment thing is between me and this person, not passersby’ is a lot stronger. PDA would not be a problem. At least until he gets drunk <:/
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💘:how does my muse act/react when they first realize that they had a crush on somebody?
Since he hasn’t had one yet, this is speculation given how he usually acts.
Badly.
J’hasi’s very anxious about being emotionally vulnerable at any given point in time. Having feelings develop for a person is basically having a straight shot right to his heart and there’s little he can do about it except avoid the person. That is, if he even realizes that it’s romantic feelings rather than platonic ones in the first place (because…the line for that is pretty blurred for him, he dunno what ends where aside from certain things are done with one but not the other).
If he didn’t realize it (since they’d have to be friends before romantic feelings started to develop in the first place) he may or may not be confused about the weird ways his body reacts, his heart beating a little too fast and high in his chest, weird feelings in his stomach, etc. Once he did realize (if he realized), then he’d be caught between ‘just keep calm it’s fine, it’s fine’ and ‘THIS IS NOT FINE’. He’d try to deny to himself that he’s feeling that at all, period.
If this continued for an extended period of time, he might drop into hopeless, quiet pining, pretending that everything is FUCKING FINE, meanwhile feeling like his whole chest is being slowly torn apart. He’d likely get worse over time until the crush in question finds out (mortifying), crush confesses similar feelings back first (!!!!!!), J’hasi feels like he’s going to die if he doesn’t do something/other circumstances force the issue (;__;), or he straight up can’t take it anymore and runs away (the most likely option right next to dying).
Like I mentioned here, he’s fucking stubborn as hell.
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💝:what would my muse consider a “perfect gift”?
How would J’hasi handle seeing the object of his affection fall in love with someone else?
With friends he tends to be a little wary of the new person if it’s a stranger that his friend has picked for a romantic partner, rather than being a friend to them prior to romantic whatever. He’ll be a little protective initially, but he’ll chill out when he sees that his friend is at ease and safe around them, or he sees that the partner in question seems alright.
Now if he somehow got himself mixed up with romantic feelings for someone and they fell for someone else?
Honestly, he would be a mess. As mentioned in a previous ask, he’s very stubborn about saying how he feels due to fears of rejection or ridicule (bc oh no, emotional vulnerability!). So right off the bat he’s in a bad place, because how the hell could he ever open his mouth and say how he feels when they’ve already fallen for someone else? He’d just be in the way then. He doesn’t want to ruin the nice thing they have going for them, they have someone that makes them happy, he should be happy for friend!
Which…he’ll try to be. At first. But the longer it goes on, the more it hurts him, the more he gets quieter and more withdrawn and upset until the point that he might start avoiding them altogether. Much sads, much booze, much isolating himself by wandering off in the wilderness for days at a time. The friendship would likely deteriorate into nothing without intervention or forced circumstances, by which point J’hasi would likely leave the area entirely and not come back.
So in a way, I’m kinda glad that he’s not really inclined towards such things o_o;;;
💟: what are three traits that my muse looks for in a partner?; 💝: what would my muse consider a “perfect gift”?; ❥: what is my muse’s ideal date?
💟: what are three traits that my muse looks for in a partner?
J’hasi’s never ‘looked for’ a partner in his life. However, there are a few traits (that I’ve noticed) that he tends to gravitate to initially, and certain ones that tend to make him stick around. Romantic partners would likely be the same thing, as for J’hasi, the line between friendship and romance is a mess of ‘wtf is the difference aside from certain activities are done with this one and not that one?’. Not to say that he’s likely to initiate romantic whatever with anyone he becomes friends with, but at at this point and time, he can’t tell the difference between friendship and romance because he hasn’t experienced romantic attraction yet (whether he will, I don’t know).
Now, with that huge fucking disclaimer overwith: traits.
J’hasi likes red. For whatever reason, I’ve noticed that the people he tends to become close with have a decent amount of red on them, whether it be clothes, hair, feathers, scales, etc. Not sure if this is something that actually draws him to a person or not (or if I just like red in my character designs lmao), but it’s happened enough for there to be a potential trait.
There’s the typical stuff like he tends to prefer hanging around Dunmer/Argonians, people who speak Dunmeris/Jel, he’s interested in mages, but holy hell if you are nice to him and no seemingly ulterior motive in sight, he’s gonna be interested and poke around a little more. This is sort of a ‘yeah ok, anyone would be like that’ but with how J’hasi is, it’s a Big Deal. People aren’t just nice to him out of the blue.
He typically gets suspicious, but when the person doesn’t seem to have malicious intent behind it (even if it’s just giving him directions, something that wouldn’t directly benefit them in any way), it makes him a lot friendlier, probably a little too much so for his own comfort (because he’s got a big heart, and is probably a little too curious and friendly for his own good). It’s also how he’s gotten hurt so many times before in the past.
He likes nice hair too. What qualifies as ‘nice’, I haven’t been able to pin down a specific quality yet.
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💝: what would my muse consider a “perfect gift”?
Answered! But I’ll go into some specifics (not that this post isn’t already long enough lmao).
I mentioned that clothes, food, tools, practical stuff that he can use are big ‘yes, good’ gifts for him. Tasty foods, either stuff he knows he likes from Morrowind or Black Marsh (certain types of sweetfish, sujamma, etc), or new stuff that he’s never tried before (and thus are a new experience) are big hits. In Skyrim, any sort of clothing that’s warm is a Big Deal, especially if it’s colors he prefers wearing or likes (reds, browns, etc). Clothes in general are good, so long as they are a little bigger than what he’d actually wear (for some reason he’s never really worn clothes that properly fit in his life, so if it isn’t a little big on him he thinks it’s ‘too small’). Even tools or weapons are good choices, provided he can use them, and are of good quality. Hunting knives are good, since he’s lost a fair few over the years from fights or hunts, as are supplies such as bandages, salves, etc.
However, a gift he’d be hesitant about using is a spear, as his current spear is a gift he got from his late friend Jeer-rah, a gift he promised to always keep with him, and has almost been like a surrogate to Jeer’s lack of presence in the world of the living.
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❥: what is my muse’s ideal date?
Answered! But again, I’ll go into a little more specifics/examples/etc.
Cuddletimes are really good. And swimming. FOOD! Quiet alone time with the person so he can be open with them and invade their personal space and yeah he’s a little bit of an attention seeker with people he’s close with what d’you expect the last time he got a hug from someone before coming to Skyrim was like 30 years ago c’mon man;;;
He really misses the cuddlesessions with Maarzi and Jeer from way back when, beds seemed cold and empty for the longest time after they’d poofed from the world.
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